I'm a freshman in college. There are some fairly nice girls on my floor and I had lunch and dinner with them (8 of us in all) today. I have their numbers and such, so I'd say we are acquaintances. Anyway, it makes it so much harder. I feel so superficial and fake and left out. Like everyone likes the others more then me. Obviously, having friends without Eating disorders makes behaviors harder to do (good, but also bad for stress). I am no longer the "crazy" one. Only one person here knows my past and we are both trying to be someone else. Thing is; I don't know how to not be the crazy one- the cutter, the anorexic, the emo...etc...I feel really lost right now. I have been going to different club type things; I feel empty. I've also been sleeping a lot. I guess it can all be depression......
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