I am a cutter. Or 'Emo-Freak'. Whichever you call it. I'm 13. My nickname is 'Squizzy'. And... When everyones quiet at night, when my Mom and step-dad are in their room and I'm supposed to be 'asleep'. They don't know what I really do. I turn on depressing songs by Evanescence and I cut. I cut hard and end up crying most of the night. My boyfriend doesn't know. And only a couple of my closest friends found out. But they don't know how bad it is. I feel so alone. Like no one understands me. I'm not the brightest person in school. and even when I have 1 missing assignment... My mother flips out. I hate it. And I pretty much hate my life. My dad and step-mom had a 'beautiful baby girl' like, 2 years ago. [That kid is a little bitch and I hate her.] [[shes 1]] I feel that the world is out to get me. And I get so mad at myself. I haven't bled yet. I mean. A little scrape here and there. But, I NEED to bleed. And I get so angry at myself. No metter how hard i push that blae into my skin. There's never any blood. If there's any advice to anything I've said could u please reply or message me??? TeannaKills story drove me back from the suicide mission i was planning on carrying out soon. Thanks for listening to my hectic story of the past couple months.
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