i have not been myself lately. all my friends say they are worried about me. they say i have been spacing out alot lately. i have been getting strong urges to cut myself all the time but have trouble resisting and i am tired of hiding scars from friends and family.i just don't know where i stand anymore or even who i am anymore. i just hate myself for the things i've done and said to my parents and the more i think about it the more i just want to die. they are gone and it is too late to appoligize. it has just started to hit me that they are gone and not coming back. EVER! i just... i really need some help here. i have been so strong for my brother and sisters and my family and i am just breaking down now.i can't deal with this pain much longer. i attempted suicide 2 days ago but was unsucessful. i want to die but then i don't wannt to dissipoint my parents but i am just so confused! i just can't please everyone and myself. i just really need some help!
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