i know the feeling of being repulsed by your actions, i am too. u can stop if ur ready, do things to distract yourself and think of what ull look like without scars. you can do it!

i wanna stop so bad but when i do i miss my scars and i compulsively i hurt myself with every little thing i can my hands on without cutting i dont feel hole

but if u dont have any scars or cuts u dont have anything to hide, just think of how much happier ull be without cutting. i know it doesnt seem like it now, but you can do it. one step at a time!

thanks... ill try

Your not a horrible person and u dont deserve to die for doing it, u dont do it purposely to hurt other people, u do it to make the hurt go away from u because there is no other way. I cut myself because i get so frustrated and i have no other way, its like a punishment to me and it takes away the hurt at the same time. Do u think when your mum blames herself you do it more to punish yourself? because your mums just scared it can be a big shock to them, but that doesnt mean she thinks any less of you. I have tried doing things which still give me the same feeling like punching a pillow until im worn out, it realises the anger, or geting an elastic band and putin it on my wrist and snap it, it hurts but yet u have no scar, its a start to get out of the routine? i hope this helps, if u need to talk message me anytime x