Loneliness, self hatred and depression...............it's all a vicious cycle that we can't break. The longer I'm alone, the more I hate myself and the more I hate myself, the more depressed I get. The more depressed, the more I isolate myself from people, making me lonely and allowing the self hatred to rule my world.
I see no end to this cycle so often I wonder why I keep going. I am only existing and not really living. Bad things keep happening to me that make me more depressed. I sometimes don't think that I am strong enough to fight the bad thoughts in my mind.