i feel so stupid and idiotic. I read the discussion posts and everyone is so smart and articulate. I feel like a dumb ass. i am so self conscious. maybe it stems from all the abuse i've suffered...i don't really know. i do know i've always felt "less than". like i don't, and never will, fit in...not anywhere. not here, and certainly not out in the real world. maybe i have suffered some brain damage from all the overdoses and drinking. i have lost "Me". i have no idea who i am anymore.
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