I was born with I believed a partial vertebrae behind my heart. I was 28 in April of 08 when I had two vertebrae replaced with cages and two rods with 20 screws. My body has not gotten better for the last 6 months. I have kicked opiates twice, and am prepared for a life at this level of pain, which means no lifting, no manhandling the things that I really really miss. It will be a year this April09 and I am so scared if I can even handle taking the classes physically to reeducate myself. I would like to be a respiratory therapist. I used to be a handyman for an orphanage and condo association. The stark contrast in ability despairs me so much. My doctors had such optimism with healing and returning to work. Is this very common to people with my similar surgery? And what do you do for the depression, my mind feels raped by despair.
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