I sometimes think that people are trying to kill me. Find someone you love your mother or a friend and talk to them. They will tell you what's happening. Then trust them with all your heart. I know it's hard to trust but you must do it. They know what's good for you.
If you can't talk to any friends or family call a doctor and trust them. I know it's hard and everything seems real but you have schizophrenia. You need to believe in someone. It's your illness. I once believed that my parents were trying to kill me but they loved me. I just needed to trust them. Trusting will help stop the pain.
take it day by day
caregiver 07 and huband

i agree with caregiver...that sounds like good advice...it must be so very hard but you can do it!

I used to think people were going to torture me with fish hooks and razor blades. Everyone was lieing when they denied. I heard them saying it to me when they said something else. I called it double talk. I too was very scared.

i think your dad is whoever you want your dad to be. enetics are just the physical side of things. Emotionally, your dad is whoever you want.