My mother dissapears and reappears in my life every year or so. she just shows up causes chaos and leaves. I have not had an address for her for 15 years. she insults me, my children, my friends and my childrens friends. I have never used drugs, I dont drink and I dont smoke. However I suddenly understand the need to end it all or escape reality. Her inability to recognize reality makes me hate my own. When is enough enough and I am really a bad person to protect my children from their grandma and hold on to my sanity
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