I know I shouldn't have done this but for 1 week I cut my seroquel (anti-psychotic) in half. I wanted to feel "normal" and not just "here". About the 4th night I heard voices. it was a man but i could not make out what he was saying. The voices usually come from my pillow. That's how they came to my mother as well. then there was music. I got up and checked every room for the source but when back and it was my pillow. It was nice music at least. I also, in the past about 2 years ago, heard 2 little girls and they were calling my name. I told my shrink that that was the first time they ever acknowleged me and that I was scared. Before I would listen to them and they didn't know I was there. In 2000 I heard 5 distinctive people. My shrink never got mad and said they did not exist. He just said, "Hey, as long as they aren't mean or telling you to hurt someone or yourself just let them be." I was happy about that. See, I know they don't exist but they do in my mind.

Think about it though. How genius it must be to actually create people.

I hope noone makes fun of me for this post. it just might tear me apart.

Last night I took my full 800 mg.

heather