I literally almost lost it today. I am afraid of myself right now. I just feel like Im slipping. Everything is my responcibility though it shouldnt be, and I have no support system or help at home. I dont know what to do anymore. I feel like I may need to go to the hospital but I dont even know where to put my kids. I dont want them to have to go into state of foster care, but I need help and my husband refuses to help me and doesnt care that I am about to have a nervous break down and I am at a point where I am afraid of myself. The kids keep fighting and screaming and I just cant stand it any longer. I want to just run out the door for a moment and breathe and just have some silence. MY HUSBAND WONT EVEN WATCH THEM LONG ENOUGH FOR ME TO GO TO THE GAS STATION!!! Hes out with his friends now having a drink! AND Im alone aagain with the kids. I am trying so hard right now to keep my cool, but I literally almost started throwing the dishes at the wall. The kdis were fighting and the baby was crying and I was doing dishes while trying to stop the kids from fighting and the baby from crying when my husband says "im going for a ride" and walked out the door. I dont know how much more I can take of this. I need some help.
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