Man i don't even now where to start. Im a very scared or (paranoid) person im always being aware. and i take it alot out on my kids and self. i dont let them play with others if i do im there watching eving if im talking to the parent of the child. ( what i will do is burst out with a loud yelling and get very upset for nothing i do be thinking that the other will hurt mines or i be thinking the mother is getting mad and might think my child is hurting there child or i will be thinking something bad is gone to happen and i need to yell out loud so they can here me in time) all of that goes through my head at the same time and i will be bitting my nails with that. im seeing a thr/psy but i dont know now i cant seem to tell them what im going through i think they dont believe me and just be looking at me and tell from my tone and body i dont know man i just need someone to help me. my kidss are to hype they dont listen they hit me talk back they yell i still by them what ever they want at the time they want it why because the dont need it all they do is break the toys i by all of them ever toy i buy they break them. man man man girl is what i have three men and one girl 10,3,4,1. and me being schizoaffective or ptsd with depression i dont know which way to look i cant sleep im up im doing noting but sitting in the house i think my mom and dad is sending me messages allthe time .im on risperdal/mirtazapine but scared to take sometimes because i want to see what is there all over me in my house car when i set out side with my kids. i move to a different state and it gottin worser i thought it will help but no im still the same im not eatting right man . i dont know im just all fu up.i just want a little advice to see it can help me wheen i see my thera/psy. please.
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