Schizophrenia Support Group

Schizophrenia is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by impairments in the perception of reality and by significant social dysfunction. Untreated schizophrenia is typically characterized by demonstrating disorganized thinking and experiencing delusions or auditory hallucinations.

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freakin out!!!

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Oh my God I am absolutly freakin out...

Tonight I have to stay at my moms house because my partners daughter is staying over and we've just moved in and havent got a bed for her yet and i just spoke to my mom and she isn't in tonight and my sister is away which means i will have to stay alone with my dad and i know this time he really is going to kill me and i cant afford to stop in a hotel and i might sleep on the streets because i swear hes going to stangle me in my sleep and im at work and i cant breathe really really panicing so my spelling and grammar is probably awful but i just cant slow down - how could my own mother do this to me? she must know whats happpening and that tonight is the night he finally does it, i expected my mom to come pick me up the other day but it was him driving and i know he wanted to crash the car with me in it but my mom was there but tonight its just us and i know that after wanting to force the life out of me for so long it will be tonight, i keep praying but i see no way out of this my mom thinks im being stupid being crazy but im completley freaking out i cant get a grip what should i do?? please anyone im begging you he wont have mercy tell me what to do...
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have u expressed these fears to your partner?! & if u still must leave, is there anyway u will feel better locking your bedroom door? I don't feel he will harm u knowing your mother would know it was him...if that train of thought helps u!
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ive told my partner and he just keeps asking why i think this? and i can't tell him, because i don't know, i just know he's going to. Hes wanted to kill me for years, im so scared to death, theres no lock id be sleeping in the guest room.
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Talk to your partner When you talk to your partner express the reason why he is going to kill you. What he has done and what you think he will do. That way your partner and you will have an understanding of the situation. Don't be afraid to express yourself.
I go through a lot of pain but my wife loves me and understands the problems I have.
Always express yourself
caregiver 07 husband
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Also trust your partner. He knows whats best for you. Whatever it is I'm sure he'll understand you.
Always express yourself
caregiver 07 husband
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oh my god you guys, thanks for all the support but i now feel like such an idiot.

your probably all thinking that my dad sexually/ physically/ mentally abused me. My Dad has never layed a hand on me and I'm so so embaressed.
I can't even tell you why i freaked out so bad yesterday, i've got no reason to be scared of my Dad, yet i've been terrified of him since around the age of 12, thats why my partner/mom doesn't understand - they think im just completley insane... maybe i am... im just so humiliated i made a huge scene at work and everything and i carried on like an idiot: having a panic attack, crying, shaking, generally hysterical.
and now everyone is gonna look and think my daddy hurts me and he has never hurt me, i can't explain why i am so petrified of him...
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Don't worry about it. You need to move on with your life that is what your father wants you to do.
I have thought my wife and family were trying to kill me and even accused them of being the voices in my head. I totally think my wife is cheating on me because the voices say she is and I accuse her constantly. I even think she is trying to torture me at times.
Even after the accusations they still love me and want me to move on with my life
You are not alone. Ive done the same thing.
Remember to trust
caregiver 07 husband
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My psycotic episodes embarrass me too. I feel so stupid, but it's ok. We understand. I've been there too!
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real or not, you feel petrified when you think your dad is going to kil you. therefore you should be able to take steps to keep yourself safe. even when i am phsycotic and stuff, i still dont want to be caused any further stress. try to remember that your partner, family, coworkers do not fully understand mental illness. No one does. Try to keep yourself safe and work through some issues aer you on meds?
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oh yeh, and o need to be embarrased. who isnt now and then?
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Go home and have your partners daughter sleep on the couch or floor. That is your home. Safe place. It doesn't hurt someone to sleep on the couch or floor. I did it when I visited my Dad on weekends.
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