Hey, my husband was originally diagnosed with depression with psychosis. They later changed his diagnosis to paranoid disorder. He was hearing voices and appeared to be seeing something in pictures of himself. He would never tell me what he saw in all the photos or what the thought in his head were. On the day he commit suicide, he woke up that morning telling me he was restless and feeling paranoid that he would lose his job. He had shown no signs of an episode prior to this day. He wandered around the house with a lost look on his face and spoke very little to anyone. About one in the afternoon I found him dead in our bathroom. I know what it feels like to have suicidal thoughts. I think most people have had them at some point. But I can't understand what would cause him to so suddenly feel that he needed to actually go through with it. When I was mildly depressed I had the thoughts but the thought of actually going through with it deeply saddened me. Has anyone actually attempted it? What are the thoughts that justified it? Also, what would you think he may have been seeing in old pictures of himself?
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