I was diagnosed as schizophrenic a year after enduring several months of sexual abuse. 3 years prior to that, i had lost my father to a heart attack. Maybe its a cumulative effect combined with a genentic predispositon. But here's the one missing key element. No one in my family that i know of has ever suffered from schizophrenia. My sister is the only other one to suffer from a thought disorder, but she had anorexia and recovered. I'm recovered from my schizophrenia, I found a method that does work for me. Before I tried this, i attempted suicide. But now I feel like i'm happy to be alive. Although, as my picture on here symbolizes, there is a persistence of memory. it doesnt say it has control, but it will always pop up at times. Anyway, there was really no direct connection with schizophrenia in me being caused by my father's death, but there seemed to be direct correlation to it with sexual abuse, because the things heard, saw, and even smelled (hallucinations) were all things directly related to sexual things. I now have a problem with compulsive masturbation, and masturbation of the mind. I also at times leave scratch marks on my body because i self abuse when i'm agitated or provoked.
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