I'm afraid to leave the house alone. I recently dropped out of school and moved back in with my parents. I am very frightened and have lost the independence I fought so hard for. I tend to dissociate. Lately it's been more and more like blacking out. Last week week it really hit me how bad it was- I was taking the dog for a walk and would just sort of.... leave and then come to a few blocks away. I'm terrified I will wander in to traffic or will get lost or get assaulted (I've been assaulted before). My hallucinations tend to be of fairly ordinary things so I have almost no sense of what is real and what is being created by my head. The only times I leave the house any more is if someone (usually my mom) is with me. I used to take public transportation all the time, but now I'm afraid to. My dad works full time and my mom works two half days and two full days, so I'm home alone a lot. I have a dog who makes me feel safe enough if I stay in the house, but I really can't leave anymore. I'm so scared. Please, can anyone help?
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