I felt similar when my hallucinations calmed down. I distracted my mind. I know that sounds like something a psychiatrist or nurse would advise you to do, not knowing what it's like, but it really helped me. I got a course in Safeguarding children to do at home. I also started reading more and let my creativity and imagination become active in a positive way. It was hard though because my meds have dulled my personality and made me less creative but I managed it and now I am doing just fine. It is normal to fear them coming back, too. I guess we have to all stay as positive as we can. As hard as it may be at times.
Argh sorry... I am reading back and cringing... I believe in everything I've written but I don't have a way with words.
Hope I helped at least a tiny bit.

thank you for at least responding. yeah i used to do alot of things and i just lost focus on doing those things, maybe i can go back to doing those things. thats a good idea. i loved reading the classics of books. thank you again for the responding

I just wish I could have given you more advice. It's hard because I am kinda in the same situation atm. x

it is sometimes hard to get used to being "normal" if you know what i mean. i went through this when i was first dx with bipolar with psychosis being on meds was weird, but my dr told me this is what everyone else feels like. now i am not hallucinating (very much anyway) & I feel much better. HUGS to you