Well I hope you have all had a better week then I have. It has been very busy at work and for most of the week I have been having a flare especially in my hands. I have had to use my wrist braces and have had ice packs on them. Some days I wonder if all this crap I take is working at all. I was reading somewhere about a person who was on 210 pills a week. OI thought OMG that's a ton of meds. Then I decided to count up how many I take a week. Just my regular scheduled meds are 233 pills and a shot 2x per month. This doesn't include any Tylenol or Percocet I may need to take. It is very hard for me some weeks as I am the bread winner of the house my husband doesn't have a job and since I need to keep my job I just need to press on and suck it up. Having said that I have 4 kids at home who have activities my husband doesn't grocery shop or make dinners. Today it was a really exhausting day at work. I was really happy about getting an award. It makes me remember that I do something that is important to others. But the rest of the day really sucked. I came home late the last 2 nights because of work. I come home and open a bottle of wine even before I changed went upstairs and put the TV on and wanted to just veg out. My husband comes up and asks me if I wasn't going to bring my son to practice. REALLY I rarely drink. Don't you think he would ask me how my day was and if I was doing ok? Nope just said if I wasn't taking my son that he wasn't going because I said I would help out. Well yes I would if I felt better. Oh well Here I am at practice. Some days things just suck. I want to feel well enough to be up to doing things with my kids. He'll I wish I felt good enough to exercise so I could lose this 70lbs I have put on from my prednisone. I wish I had energy. I wish I could diet better. I wish I wish I wish I didn't have RA. Sorry for the long rant. Thanks
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