I have been in a flare for a week now. Every time I get one I get so scared. The pain is so bad, nothing seems to work. I am on mtx, and I have plenty of pain meds, but nothing takes the pain completely away. I get shaky, depressed, and my asthma gets worse during each flare. Is there anyone out there that has such flares that NOTHING TAKES THE PAIN COMPLETELY AWAY? It also scares me that I am 48 years old and what is to become of me? I have gained so much weight, HOW DO YOU LOSE IT WHEN IT HURTS TO MOVE???? does anyone know? What if I get addicted to pain meds? I am afraid. I have a supportive husband and family that take good care of me. I share these feelings with my husband but don't want to frighten the rest of my family. I try to be strong. I have noticed that when the pain lasts for days it literally starts to make me nutty, then I cry. Am I alone, are there others who feel this way?
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