I was just sitting here, easing into the monring, and my mind went wandering. I was thinking about my fears. I usually take one day at a time, to maintain my sanity, but this morning I am looking into the future. Right now, my biggest fear is not being able to work. I barely make it thru the week now. I need to work. I carry our health insurance. My husband has health insurance thru his job, but it is more expensive than mine, and it is not as good a plan. I don't know if his insuracne plan would cover my humira. I'm also fearful of the TKR surgery in my future. I keep telling myself that maybe I can get along without having both of my knees replaced. Then there is the fear of what I will do if Humira doesn't work. I know there are other biologics out there, but it does run thru my mind from time to time. I have a wonderfully suportive husband. That is a huge blessing in my life. I feel for all of you who are alone out there and fighting this disease on your own. I know it is tough, and I just wanted to say I am so in awe of your strength of character. I want to send you all a virtual hug and tell you to keep on putting one foot in front of the other. That is what we RAers do. We keep going.
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