Sometimes I feel as though I want to leave the marriage, and it's only a matter of time, like when my son graduates next year. Maybe, it's because I believe some friends who say, no way should your H have done that to you, for any reason, and these are men too. They say you're young, start a new life. Then I think, yeah, guys with ex-wifes, crazy kids, baggage of some sort, and I'll be happier?. But, I can't let go of how weak my H is when it comes to me, and defending our relationship. Ex: his brother, who had been drinking, said, 'if you'd spread your legs more often, that wouldn't have happened', my H just sat there and said NOTHING! One guy friend said, right then I would have nailed him. But my H just sat there like a lump. How can I ever truly love a man who is so weak. He wants so much to work this out, but I feel like 2 people, the one who wants to save the marriage/family, and the person who wants to start over! Maybe it's a mid life crisis. Does anyone else struggle with these thoughts?
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