I am so tired of this emotional rollercoaster!! Me and my H were talking last night and I revealed to him what painful suppressed thoughts have been coming up about the past in relation to how I felt and feel about his infidelity. I thought this was going to make him open up as to what is going on in his head! He listened to me and started to open up, but then went for a walk. When he got home he didn't mention anything about our discussion and I was too drained to talk about it anymore. I just think he is dealing with so much guilt and questioning his own self after he hears the turmoil I am going through. This infidelity is so out of his character and he always says it would've never happened if he didn't feel betrayed in the first place. I wonder if he does open up his repressed thoughts he will not know where to go from there..he then will not have control of his thoughts.Hear i am thinking of him and i am trying to deal with issues myself. I told him this morning that if we make it through this we need to get medals tatooed on us to symbloize our victory on the most difficult time of our married life! Is anyone else going through this hell now or have you ever? How do I have my H open up..just give him time? Help!! He also does not want counseling..tried to talk him into that to no avail!!
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