I am coming up on the one year anniversary of the day my husband confessed that he cheated on me. So strange because he had completely gotten away with it. The affair(s) had been over for 2 1/2 years. One affair lasted one year, followed almost immediately by another affair that lasted 4 years. I know from this past year, he regrets all of it. He views it as a momentous mid-life crisis, a reaction to a deep depression, and huge lack of character. He has done many, many things to try and save the marriage. He never wanted to leave. My problem: I just don't feel married or really committed to him yet. I am staying and fairly sure we will be able to make it. But right now, as this anniversary of his revealing the affair gets nearer, I am filled with doubts about my decision to let him stay and work on our marriage. I find myself wondering if this past "year of hell", that is how I refer to it, will be worth "the marriage" we end up with. Will I ever feel "married" again?
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