I know its common to be flooded with thoughts of what to do to the OW, and I know you think they are not worth it, but how does one really get over the anxiety that comes with every little thing that reminds you of her? I see her in someone else's face almost on a daily basis, or even reading other stories on DS makes my heart pound almost out of my body because of having to face the issue head on. I have felt like telling her off in person when I see her, or telling her boyfriend what she did to our marriage (I don't think he knows yet), and posting her nude pictures (that I found confirming the affair) at the cabin where everybody else will see them in hopes of embarrasing her. I want to believe my husband that they are through, but I find it hard to commit myself to him Emotionally and Sexually when I hear msgs she recorded on his voicemail, and he doesnt know I know the code to hear them. He tries to convince me they are just friends, and not so much that anymore, but thats the lie they told me when the A was going on, was they were "just friends". I live in fear that they will pick up where they left off at, and its so hard to trust again, and I know subconsciously, that is keeping me from giving wholeheartedly to him. He still calls her back, the phone bill doesnt lie. I want so much to hurt her in a way for the pain she has caused me. How do you get over feeling like threatening her with her life if she doesnt get out of yours?
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