About 2 months after my H and I got married, it started. This went on for a total of 4 months before I found out. It stopped then, that was 16 months ago. We don't discuss the A, or the oW anymore. He promised me that he would never do this again, and that he had never done this before. I think he knows that there is something bothering me, but I don't think he knows what that something is. We have managed fairly well without counseling, but I have a ton of unanswered questions and it consumes me. My H works out of town for his job. After the A he got a new job that brings him home every weekend. I still have a lot of trust issues, or at least I think I do. My heart still feels so broken and bruised on the inside and I feel so incomplete. I lost my job because of it and I've been so unhappy. I really don't have anyone to talk to about this because none of my friends know what to say. Even though I don't bring it up to them, I'm afraid to. Some days I don't feel human. Are all of these feelings normal? What are some ways that I can deal with these? I want to feel me again.
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