The last couple of days have been rough. I started an argument before he went to work and then called him when I found out the maintanance men at his work caught him and the ow "making" out. He says it was just a hug. I tossed his things and told him to leave on both occasions. He ended up staying, but not because he wants to be here. So, after all of the fighting Sunday, Monday comes around and he fights more with me, I tried to stay calm. Then last night his mom called and talked to me, but didn't ask to talk to him, so he was upset. I called his mom and said that they needed to talk. Well, he started to tell her what I have said and what she said and "figure" out who was lieing to him. Well, as it turned out ofcourse it was me. We did end up fighting over the same old thing that we fight over all the time...money. For the longest time I was in charge of money and screwed everything up. I admitt to it and since he has been home he has opened his own checking account and takes care of any money issues. I told him as calm as I could that if he really doesn't want to be here then he could pack up his own stuff and leave. He ofcourse had been drinking and said that he thought that I would call the cops on him. If I were ever going to do that I would have done it a long time ago. I know that in anger I have said that I would, but never acted on it. So today I have an appointment with the surgeon and when I woke him up to see what he was doing he said "taking you to your appointment" then I asked if he were leaving after that he said he wasn't planning on it. What do I do?? He says that when I cry and say that I am looking for pitty because I am sick. Not true and this hurts more then anything else, because I don't want to feel like a burden on anyone. If I had a choice I would rather he take care of me when I get really sick then my 20 year old daughter. I don't want her to see me in that state. But, he seems to think that I have ruined his life. I feel absolutely awful right now. I can't keep doing this. Any suggestions?
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