i have been in this community for a while mostt know that my ex bf raped me alot while i am still dealing with it i was already to the point where i trusted others well now i have to go to the beginning and start all over again i met a guy the other day i had a friend with me cause i wanted to met before trying out a real relationship so the 3 of us just hung out then i went over a couple dayz later alone cause i felt safe with him he knew about my rape before so he knew i was a little leary of guys but everything seemed really nice we were just going to hang and watch tv listen to music we cuddled some and we talked a little then he kissed me nothing big it was really sweet actually we made out a couple times then he said he wanted to do something i explaned that i was trying to lead a better life and not have sex. he kept saying well you can be bad with me i kept changing the subject he would go with it a while then go back to the sex subject. then he started touching and petting now i admit im big i am 6ft and over 300lbs but this guy is like 6'4 about 350lbs and could take me i knew if i said no there was a very good chance that something worse could happen and my parents wouldnt know so i just kind of went with it i told mom everything and nicky but not dad i cant go to the cops its my word against his i have nothing to help win the case so i just as well clam up and try to move on. so please help me renew my sence of trust Again.
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