when i was 9 my dad raped me i didn't tell anyone. he did it over and over again till i was 13. he told me "if you ever tell anyone you bitch i will fucking kill you" and since he was my dad i belived him so i didn't say a word to anyone. then one night right before he tried to rape me again i told him if he ever touched me i was going to kill him and that as soon as my mom gets home i am going to tell her. well after that he went into his room wrote a letter to my mom that i read later after she did. he came out saying that he was sorry and he didn't mean to hurt me. and pulled the gun to his head. he was dead before he hit the floor. it was terible. i saw the whole thing. my mom asked me about it but i denied the whole thing. it was terible. i was so scared to admit anything. then last year i was hanging out with my boyfriend and he wanted to have sex but i told him i was not ready he didn't know why i was being such a baby about sleeping with him the truth is that what my dad did to me made me so scared to have sex with anyone. so things got ugly and he tied me up to his head board. riped all my clothes off of me. i started to scream so he got up went over to his closet and got his gun and told me that if i screamed he would kill me. out of fear of being killed i shut up. then he climbed on top of me and started raping me. i was crying so much. the next thing i know he hit me really hard in the head that it made me pass out when i woke up he was still on top of me but his brother was slso the and david told chris shut her up so he took off his clothes and put his dick into my mouth. i was chocking so much. i thought for sure i was going to die. after everything was over he said if i ever told anyone he would come after me and my mom. i was so scared. i week later i found out that i was pregent. i knew that getting rid of it was out of the question because i didn't belive in abortion. so i told my mom about it and together we pressed charges. he is now in jail. after that was all over she asked me if what my dad said in the letter happened was true and i told her i was i was just happy to get it off my chest. and she did not hate me she got me some help. and we decided to keep the baby and she was goign to help me raise it. but in september of this year i was in a car accident with my best freind frankie and i lost him and my baby it has been so hard for me. i just needed to get this all out. thank you for listening.
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