i was sexually abused by my father when i was 10- 13 till he killed himself in front of me. what he did to me made me so afraid to be with men period. but last year i pushed all my fear aside and slept with my bf. we got pregent then in september we got into a car accident and he died and i lost my baby. now i think i might be preg again but i don't know who is the father. i was raped in january. i was at a party wich i shouldn't have been and i was dressed a lil slutty i guess i was asking for it even though i never went there to hook up with anyone. i got as lil tipsy and a bunch of kids from a diff high school ganged up on me and raped me i reported it to the police and haven't herd anything about it . i didn't know the people and i couldn't make an identy and the people who i had a strong feeling it was they denied it. but now i might be preg and i am scared am i ever goign to be normal again or is this always going to keep on happening to me.
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