I know I put myself in a compromising position. But that did not give him the right to take advantage of it. When people say I kinda asked for it by making a judgement mistatke, they have no idea what they are saying. If I am driving in my car and a truck hits me and causes me great damage, is it my fault because I decided to get in the car that day?? Why is it that I have to explain my decision to be in the wrong place at the wrong time and the pig that hurt me is not asked anything?? What the hell!! I beat myself up almost daily, see, I got pregnant. My son is 20 now and perfect. He has never seen this man, my son's choice. He found out what happened by family member who felt it was her place to tell him such an awful thing. But what I really don't understand is why I continue to blame myself. No one has ever told me it wasn't my fault. Instead, I am constantly reminded of my error in judgement. Has anyone been able to move past the blame game??
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