I am so sorry you are hurting tonight. If this helps any I firmly believe rhat what goes around comes around. He will get his one day. We all create our own energy for good or for bad. Please don't feel you are sacrificing yourself, good things will come your way they take their own sweet time over it thats all. You are an amazing, strong, special person and you can put back those pieces and move on. The life you have now may not be the life you dreamed of as a little girl but it is still your life and you can do a million wounderful things with it. I am not trying to belittle you or make fun of such an awful situation, I promise I am not even if I sound like I am making light of it. It it just the way I personally view my life. I can live, love and make a difference or I can return to my bed and figure out a way to end it all. I believe my whole reason for being here on earth to to figure out what the lesson I have to learn is or I am going to keep repeating myself. In the mean time, while I sort out myself I can help others. Just my opinion. Good thoughts for a better night.

Thank you for sharing your post. I felt the same exact way that you have, so that made me feel not so alone. Please know, that you are not alone in this fight either. When this first happened to me, I couldn't get out of bed. My life completely stopped. I knew he moved on with his life with his wife and child. He wasn't negatively effected but I was completely broken. At that point, I knew I had a choice. I could continue on my self destructive cycle and let what happened to me completely destroy me, or I could fight to take my life back. I choose to fight. And let me tell you, it isn't easy. I set my alarm clock every morning and forced myself out of bed. I took pride in doing little things for myself like washing the dishes. It felt like baby steps to get back to the person that I wanted to be. I'm still not sure that I am there yet, but I'm working on it every day. You have a choice. You can fight back too. You have the strength in you and I know you can do it. Be strong. Be well.

I feel your pain. Even though I am married now, I still get flashbacks from high school. These guys are dangerous. I hate the men who raped me.

Oh my God, I feel the same way! IT has been married for over 50 years! My dream is to get married and have children. I can't even be with a guy, I've never been in a relationship! My life is ruined in so many ways!
Izzy

I ask myself that everyday... I will never have an answer...

Yeah, I get so upset when people tell me the world works fairly. Complete dirt (aka rapists) can have a nice life while a totally selfless person suffers.

At least you're not a monster like him. Even when it feels like he is winning, try to remember that he sacrificed his character and morality to greed when he did what he did. He became a monster, you're still human.