You know what really happened to you, forget about what some police report says.
I'm not a huge fan of the police myself, but I suppose from their point of view they have to say whatever is 'best' in terms of getting a prosecution/conviction, which is going to be completely different to the reality. (To draw a very crude analogy, it's like the difference between the way hospital staff will describe a serious road accident, a completely different language to what an ordinary witness on the street will use.)

You mean the police gave their opinion in their report and it didn't match what really happened?

The police didn't give their opinon in the report, it's just that the guys involved had told one version of the story to someone else. There were just a lot of discrepencies in what I thought had happened and what "actually" happened. I've just heard so many things that I still don't know what actually happened, but if what the guys said in the report actual happened then everything really is my fault.

It is not your fault and as long as you now the truth...it doesnt matter what ppolice say or the guy says. this is all in your mind and what has hurt you...its because of some valid reason.
this made o sense..i tried
but if you need to talk..ill be here

I'm sure if you're bothered so much by it, the thing you thought happened actually happened. Your mind wouldn't just make it up. If your mind makes anything up, it does so to deny the truth and make you feel better. Your mind wouldn't make up something so terrible that would damage it so much. It's human nature and biology. Something bad had to have happened.

I definitely wouldn't trust the guy's account of what happened...he's definitely proven himself to not be trustworthy, at the least.

I had this problem myself. I and my attacker had to go before the disciplinary board at the university. I wrote my statement. He wrote his. There were discrepancies and all that, but i was pretty consistent, and more came back to me later, but i told them what my mind would allow me, and showed them the bruises. But the guy gave a completely different story. said i came onto him, took him into the room and that i forced myself on him. They ended up believing me but only after i showed them the clothes i was wearing and i went before them several times. it was really tough and I began to doubt whether I had done something to make him think i wanted him. Then someone here told me not to believe that. and they were right, if you are this bothered by the things you think happened, you are probably exactly right in the recounting of what happened to you. men lie just as easily as anyone else! remember that we believe you and are here for you!

Thank you. That really means a lot to me. I'm just so confused right now.

You are not stupid.. I bought my dream house yrs ago a cute little house on the lake to raise my son and be happy - I had alot of happy memories here.... and then I took a job with Mci Eastern he was real quick to put an alarm system in my house I disconnected it and some how it got connected again all by itself back then I told the police they looked at my like i was nuts... that is when things started disappearing and reappearing.. the first thing was the statue of the angel my mother bought me and it went on clothes etc etc etc...then it happened I was drugged raped tortured left for dead on the floor and no one listened.. no one...I should have got out when the alarm system came back on by itself... Ya think...... well since then it doesnt stop.. before the rape I would hear in the corner of my room look at hear tits.... oh my god when I got out of the shower.. I told the cops.... still no one is doing anything.... it was at first in the right corner by my bedroom window... Horrible... I am not sure if someone came up on the deck and saw meor tapped on the window to get me to walk but I cant do it anymore.. My family would rather say I am nuts than say these guys raped me.. I did not let one of them in my home... My ex husband was previously charged w2ith terro4rism.....is he friends with the man who put my alarm in my house back then...????? I am not safe here I was working for R's and the black sat outside the gate like he was waiting for something the next day I woke up with a bump on my head the size of an orange and then 11-12 I started at a new company - I heard a cell phone ring in my house called the police nothing got to work notice a mark on mmy arm explained away as a bug bite then I went to the hospital they did urine and blood thank god all is well but reality that was no bug bite and my body felt like I was raped again... I can not stay here... it is too dangerous.. I reported them and 3 of them were previously investigated for rape.... so why is no one doing anything.... I am not a whore I am not schizophrentic. or retardded... Please JESus help me....

maybe it did not happen I know I called the police about my hubby and when they got here they sat me down and talked to me and actually with being married it is not concidered rape and with him being drunk he did not mean it. and I probably just did something to set him off and they told him to just leave me alone tonight and they said tomorrow he would be sorry and he was so they were right, so maybe you should just sit down and talk it out with the police they were so nice to me.