well febuary 21,22,2006 i was raped nine days aftermy b-day i told my mom and my sister but they never talk to me about it they never say anything to me. I have cut,burn,made myself throw up once thought about sucide so many times. i havent been on date with any one since my ex boyfriend who raped me at the time was my boyfriend i try so many times to write it down on here but i cant i am like frozen. i have wrote it down in notebooks but i hide them so no one will find them i am so embrass and ashamed i have slept with 2 guys that just used me. the one who raped me was my first not the first time we had sex but a little after that now i will remember giving my virginity to the guy who raped me i am so sorry to be rambling but i really need help i dont know if i can take too much more of this i dont have medical insurance to go to a therapist or the money.
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