Ive got a great bf but not to long ago we had a fight and its cuz of me. im very submisive and when we fight i feel bad cuz he has done so much for me. And now for a few days hes be depressed.I have nightmares and then feel so real i wake up and a few times i have woken up and though he was on me. also i was attacked about 3 weeks ago my only real life friend raped me she had 5 or 6 ohers with her and i still fear that night.I think he starting to get sick of me be so scared all the time and cuz hes all i have i rely on him 100%. i know its wrong of me to rely on him for everything but sad to say i don't know how to be alone.And i never want to be alone.But i feel cuz of me trashing men all the time,depressed 90% the time,and many other things.I can't do anything to make him.. well happy i'm trying to act happy more offten but i just dont know what to do.How do i make this right again?
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