WE ALL DO THINGS WHEN WE HAVE BEEN SO HURT IM THINKING THAT YOUR A KIND PERSON AND YOU WERE IN SHOCK SOMETIMES WE CANT EVEN SAY WHAT HAPPENED TO US DON'T BE HARD ON YOUR SELF PLEASE YOU ARE SAVING AN OTHER PERSON THINK OF IT THAT WAY AND BE GOOD TO YOUR SELF OK

Sounds like a Stockholm syndrome kind of thing; it might be weird, but it *does* happen in extremely stressful or survival-type situations.
Talk it over with a good counsellor, you're probably going to have a lot of different/confused feelings about the guy at different times, that is normal, you just need to get it out somewhere it'll be safe and confidential.

There are many things that happen and so much confussion, there could be a million reasons or none at all. Although it occurs to me that the punishment he received doesn't make any of this easier or take any of your pain away. Just a thought.
Take good care of yourself

I know how that is. I used to get attacked a lot in my youth, and after sending several people to the hospital, one of which attacked me with a gun, I felt bad that I had hurt them, even though they wanted to kill me. I just have to remind myself that they made the choice to screw up their life by doing what they did in the first place. They knew there was a chance I'd fight back, and accepted that risk when they decided to attack me. The same is true of the rapists, they knew there was a chance they'd get caught. Your rapist knew that and accepted those risks when he decided to hurt you, and thus it's all his fault.

I just want you to know that I'm proud that you turned him in, even though it makes you feel guilty. My father was proud of me defending myself too. He'd have been disappointed had I just let people get away with things.

my case hasnt actually gone to court yet and im not sure if it will, although it should, but i have had nightmares of EXACTLY what you said, that i felt bad HE had to be punished for hurting me and that i apologized to him in my dream because i feel that maybe he didnt mean to hurt me as much as he did and he maybe has a family and things that he will be missing out on if he goes to prison for this and i dont want to f*ck up his life because of this. i thought i was weird for thinking and dreaming it but i know i am not alone. i do feel really bad also...even though he probably deserves everything he gets.

You didn't send him to jail.
HE decided to commit this crime.
The POLICE decided to investigate your case.
The DISTRICT ATTORNEY decided to send the case to court.
The JUDGE handed him his sentence.
The LAWS decided what his punishment would be for his crimes.

All you did was ask for help, which you deserve. Do you think ALL of these people were wrong to send him to jail for what he did?

Its normal to feel guilty and blame yourself, but please know that it is not your fault. You didn't do anything wrong.