i don't want to leave Matt, i never have. i came to this cite to find out who i was, and what i wanted out of life. the years have been nothing but pain, that is the only constant. owners come and go, with new rules, and new punishments, but pain has always been there. i just wanted a place to get my feelings out, to get my emotions out. if people want to comment, then comment. i will think about everything that is said to me, but i will not go against my owner. i was trained better than that. i will not leave, nor do i want to. i just want someone to talk to to make the pain a little more bareable. i do not like pain, or sex, but that is my life. i just need an outlet for my emotions till i die, which i fugure will be soon.
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