I'm 27 and I was assaulted when I was 17. I recently saw my attacker and he recognized me. It also turns out that he lives 5 min away from me. Anyway, since he attacked me, I've never been able to be with anyone or allow anyone to get near me especially...down there. But now, I have a problem. I've never been with anyone and I've never been to a GYN but lately I've been having scary bleeding and severe pain. I talked to my primary and she knows what happened. She says that she can do the pelvic/pap test and that she won't hurt me--or that I can choose a GYN. But the truth is that I'm terrified to death of anyone touching me or even seeing me down there. I'm also afraid because since I've never been with anyone, sexually, that it's going to excrutiatingly painful. I know that I have to go but the last time a dr tried examining me, even though I didn't want to, I almost passed out bcuz I had a severe panic attack. I know that I have to do something, but how can I? What do I do? I'm so scared that there's something really wrong.
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