On new years eve I went to a party at my friends house. I was introduced to a girl that happened to go to west chester university, the school I went to and also the place that i was raped at. I had made a web page linked to facegroup about my story and providing information to college women, it is called women and men against violence against women. It was a big hit, many sororities contacted me about my story and told me that they have been using it at their meetings to teach the members in their sorority about the issue. That was my first big step with my rape, it was the first time i really talked about it and helped others. The reason I am writing this is because the girl I met at the new years eve party new of me because of my web page. It just so happened she is a member of one of the sororities that talked about my page. She started asking me about what happened to me, not in detail but she wanted to know which fraternity house it happened at and if the guy was put in jail. I told her how it was at Pi Kap, this scared the shit out of her. She and her friends also spend many weekends at that fraternit hous, much like how i used to before this. I told her the name of the assailent, and how he drugged me and that the case didnt go to court because of lack of evidence( too bad our word isnt enough : ( ...) anyway. When I said the name of the guy that did it to me, she had a look of terror on her face. She then began to tell me that a few weeks ago she and her roommate were at the house, and her roommate woke up in the same guys bed and had no idea how she got there either. THIS SICKENS ME. I asked her for the name of the girl but she was hesitent to tell me. I have tried to contact the girl from the party since to see if she would tell her friend to contact me, but no response. I am so angry and bothered about this news. This beast(the assailent) is out there continuing to do this. I pray everyday that there will be some miracle and he will go to jail. This girl could be my only hope, but if I cant get her name I cant do anything about it. I will have to live with this, but i hate that i have this on my mind now constantly. I am so sick of feeling angry. I try and try to stop thinking about the way this guy took advantage of my body, and how he has now changed my life forever. The last thing i want is for him to have any more control over my life, but i cant stop. The fact that I was raped is now on my mind all day everyday, especially since talking with the girl on new years eve. How do I get rid of this angry feeling towards him and the people I once called friends that have not supported me at all through this. It makes me sick that not only did I have this horrific experience, but the fact that he is doing this to other women and nothing can be done. Also, did any of you lose friends after going through your tramatic experience? I feel like i have no one. My familyi s very supportive, but many of my friends have pulled away from me because of the drama in my life. As if i asked to be raped? Since when is being drugged and raped someones fault? How dare they cut me off. It is hard enough to swallow the actual rape, but now that I have lost many friends and guys that I have dated as well, it makes it really tough.
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