If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
I'm no longer feeling shame in the fact I was assaulted, I accept it happened and that it will always be a part of my life; however, I am feeling shame in allowing it to ruin every aspect of my life still, even after 15 years. I don't go out, I get extreme anxiety when in any social situation (including job interviews)looking over my shoulder constantly, have distanced myself from all my friends and family, I judge every guy as a monstrous, evil pig who wants to hurt me, and have absolutely no trust in myself to protect myself when I do let my guard down every now and then. I'd rather stay home, locked away where I know I'm safe. Feeling like this and living this way is not normal, how do I work through it all???
I haven't really addressed the rape with my therapist yet, avoid it every time. This is the first time I've opened up like this. I am soooo scared to go through it again, the flashbacks and nightmares are hard enough *sigh. Any words of wisdom/experience would be great. I think I am ready to move forward in my healing. Thanks for listening.