If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
Shai wrote that work is torture and life is torture in reply to someone's post. I was hoping someone can help me figure out why. Why should life be torture, even years later? Clearly it is, not just for me. I just don't understand why and without understanding why, I don't really know what to do. It is torturous to be depressed, suicidal, self-injuring, eating disordered, anxious, even getting startled easily. I just don't understand why I feel this way and why I can't ever seem to feel even OK, anything other than bad. When Shai wrote "Life is torture" it struck a nerve because she is right, but I feel clueless.
I am a rape survivor. The abuse stopped in 2010. But here recently I have found that the reprocussions have started now. I have a chance with my significant other for a real future and I am struggling. I don't feel like I am worth more than I am now. And I don't want to continue the pattern