I WAS JUST WONTING TO TELL A STORY ABOUT WHAT HAPPEND TO ME AM NOT STRONG AM WEAK NOT IN NEED HELP I DONT NO WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT.I WAS 6Y OLD WHEN EVER THING HAPPED TO ME TURN MY WORLD UP SIDE DOWN IN JUST MINS I DID NOT NO THAT A GROWN-UP CAN THINK ABOUT HURTING A KID I THOUGHT THAT WAS WRONG ABOUT THAT I JUST YOU WILL SAY THAT HE WAS MY COUSIN BUT HE WAS OLD THAT ALL I NO HE WAS BIG,BUT HE WILL ALWAYS LOOK AT ME LIKE FUNNY INTO ONE NIGHT WHEN HE TOLD MY MOM THAT SHE CAN WORK OVER BECOUSE HE DONT HAVE TO WORK THE NEXT DAY THAT DAY I WAS NOT SLEEP BUT MY BORTHERS WAS WE STAYED AN THE SAME ROOM IT WAS ONLY A 2 BED ROOM BUT HE SLEP IN THE FRONTROOM BUT THAT NIGHT WHEN MY MOM LEFT IT WAS ABOUT 9:00PM I WAS THINKING I LOVE YOU MOM DONT GO TAKE ME WITH YOU.THAN ABOUT 1HR LATER HE CAME IN MY ROOM IN TOUCH MY LEG I DID NOT MOVE THAN HE TOUCH MY BUTT I MOVE A LITTLE THAN HE PICK ME UP IN SAID YOU NEED TO COME SLEEP WITH ME TONIGHT I SAID I WONT TO SLEEP WITH MY BORTHERS HE SAID NO HE HAD A PALLET ON THE FLOOR HE TOLD ME TO LAY DOWN AN GO TO SLEEP SO I DID THAN HE WITH INTO THE BATHROOM IT SEEMS LIKE SECONDS HE CAME BACK OUT THAN HE LAYED BEHIND ME HE STARTED TOUCHING MY ARM THAN HE STARTED TOUCHING MY BUTT THAN MY PEE PEE WELL THAT WORD I WILL USED FOR NOW HE JUST WAS TOUCHING AT FIRST THAN HE SAID TOUCH ME I SAID NO CRYING NO,NO THAN HE CUT THE TV OFF I WAS VERY SCARED I WAS ONLY SIX AT THE TIME HE DID NOT CARE ABOUT THAT I SAID I WAS SLEEPLY HE NO JUST PLAY WITH ME I SAID NO THAN HE LAYED ON ME SAYING YOU WONT ME I SAID NO THAN HE PUT HIS HAND ON MY MOUTH THAN HE PUT MY LEGS UP IN THE AIR AN I WONT EVER FORGET WHAT HE SAID IT WONT HURT THAN HE PINNED ME TO THE FLOOR WITH MY LEGS UP AN HE SAID I LOVE YOU THAN PUSH HIM SELF IN ME IT WAS THE NIGHT I WAS NOT A LITTLE GIRL ANYMORE I WAS NO ONE I WAS SOMEONE THAT NO ONE LOVE I WAS HURT I WAS VIOLATED I WAS ASHAMED THAT I WAS A LITTLE GIRL HE TOOK SOMETHING THAT I CAN'T GET BACK NO MORE HE TOOK ME.THAN AFTER HE HAD RIP ME OPEND IN BLOOD WAS EVERWERE HE PUT ME IN A TUB OF COLD WATER IN MADE ME SAY THERE FOR HRS THE TUB OF FILL BLOOD MY BLOOD ME MY SOUL MY LOVE I HAD NO EMOTIONS NO MORE I WAS AN SHOCK I FEEL LIKE I DESERVED IT I WAS A GIRL NOT A BOY I DID NOT EVEN TALK TO NO ONE INTILL 3Y LATER ALL THE PAIN ALL THE HURT WHEN I TOLD I WAS TRAUMATIC SCARED I WAS NO ONE MY LIFE WAS NOT THE SAME I AM STILL NOT THE SAME I STILL DREAM MOSTLY EVR NIGHT I JUST DONT NO WHAT TO DO ANYMORE HELP I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO CAN ANYONE HELP ME OUT OF THIS THANK YOU SKYKY.
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