Ever since I found out that my rapist got out of prision Ive been having trouble sleeping and when I do sleep Im having nightmares. I have even been making my daughter sleep with me cause he's been going around saying that he's gonna get me back for turning him in. My husband reassures me that nothing bad will happen but I get this gut feeling that he might find me somehow. Im scared to death and nothing to stop it. I wish he was dead or in jail, and I know thats wrong to say but him being free is ruining my life. I thought moving over 3 hours from him would help me feel more comfort but it dont. I wake up scared everynight and morning thinking that he is in the house and since my husband leave's by 5 am Im home alone from 8-3. Im so paranoid during this time that I have to stay on the phone with someone just to feel a hint of safeness. I know that sounds wierd but It helps me. I just dont know how to get over this. My husband doesnt understand and I cant keep this up any longer. I feel like my head is about to explode. What can I do to help me feel more secure and help me sleep? Ive tried sleeping pills and even tried wearing myself out from a long day and nothing seems to work anymore.
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