I was raped 4 years ago, and right after it happened I went on a binge of one-night-stands which I have now come to know as "re-enactment" of the trauma. It has been a couple years since I moved past that point, and then a couple of months ago I had another one-nighter. After not going that unhealthy route in about 2 years. So I was confused with what suddenly made me go after that "coping" technique again. I got looking at the calender and it fell exactly on the 4th anniversary of the rape. But I did not know that at the time. Now my question is, was it coincidence? Or is it possible that my subconcious knew and was reacting the way it had in the past? Any ideas/thoughts/feedback?
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