I have successfully pushed away my support system. Tonight, it was my best and only friend. He has stuck by me even after we broke up, even after all of the horrible things I have said, and the lack of love I have shown him. He loves me and understands how sick I am, and how badly I need help. But he has had enough, and I don't blame him. I thought I was alone before, but this is dark. I spend everyday, all day in my room, on my computer and only leave to pick up snacks- when I actually do eat. This is the first time I have sought help for the rapes, and my world is in shambles. I've had panic attacks before, starting in highschool, but this is a nightmare. I've been angry, depressed, embarrassed, empathetic, apathetic, and frustrated but never so sad. It's just a deep, very dark sadness. I can't even form a cohesive paragraph. I know I need help, I'm terrified of therapy. Does anyone have some good advice for a lost 23 year old?
Posts You May Be Interested In
I was raped in 2017 , I had just graduated school , first official job and was living life. Went to a party with my friends got drunk and I'm not sure if the guys slipped something in my cup but I blacked out and woke up to one of them on me. I remember saying stop and please trying to push him off me but I blacked out again. I started doing horrible in school during college , I haven't went back...
My wife and I after 27 and a half years together have decided to have kids. Only, we want to foster LGBT teens and eventually adopt. We are excited, a little anxious, and more than ready for the challenge. Is there anyone else out there with experiences, (good and bad) that would share with us your stories. thank you!!!