I thought I was over it, but I am not. I thought I could go without counseling or online support anymore, but I was proven wrong tonight. I was raped in December of 2007 and it was by far the worst experience of my life. I am a strong individual, so I have always learned to get over things. I haven't been involved with anyone since the rape, but tonight set something off. It has been over a year now and although they say time heals the wounds, I think that is BS in this case. I was hanging out with my male friend from high school tonight and as soon as we started kissing, I completely flipped out. I started thinking the worst possible scenarios and I wanted to get out of there. I started having horrible flashbacks. He is an amazing guy and I don't want to think he would ever do that to me, but I can't help it. I feel like I will never, ever be normal again. I hate how I do not feel normal anymore and I do not think it is fair...
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I am a rape survivor. The abuse stopped in 2010. But here recently I have found that the reprocussions have started now. I have a chance with my significant other for a real future and I am struggling. I don't feel like I am worth more than I am now. And I don't want to continue the pattern