
Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.

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Hi everyone...im new.
The assult happened on friday night/saturday morning.
I feel ok,but weird. (gonna talk pre-friday for a mo,because i dont know how i am now) Im usually very happy, very strong and pretty clear headed.
If a friend relative had been in my possition on friday, id be the first to say "call the police" but I just cant at the minute...i feel like it was my fault and that they wont believe me, or that it would help anyway. I have had some swabs taken, and they took my clothes for forensics...they'll keep them in case i do want to press charges.
at the moment, i just want to carry on as normal...im even going into college tomoz...gonna try and normalise things...hope that helps.
does anyone else feel like this??? Like, doubting that it even happened (I was at my mates house and asleep drunk,and woke up during the act-i feel like i did concent-even tho i didnt!!!its so weird) maybe it was my fault?? i feel guilty guilty guilty...i feel bad that other people feel bad for meee...im usually the strong one...
i keep thinking about it too...like flashbacks that make me cringe...and go quiet...
i dont know how to feel, or act...should i act ok or will people doubt me then??? its totally fucked up...
im anoid that this has happened...like an illness, its getting in the way...
i dont know...i feel a bit alone...i feel...i dunno how i feel.
sum1 please tell me im not going bonkers...lol
thanks for reading guys xxx
The assult happened on friday night/saturday morning.
I feel ok,but weird. (gonna talk pre-friday for a mo,because i dont know how i am now) Im usually very happy, very strong and pretty clear headed.
If a friend relative had been in my possition on friday, id be the first to say "call the police" but I just cant at the minute...i feel like it was my fault and that they wont believe me, or that it would help anyway. I have had some swabs taken, and they took my clothes for forensics...they'll keep them in case i do want to press charges.
at the moment, i just want to carry on as normal...im even going into college tomoz...gonna try and normalise things...hope that helps.
does anyone else feel like this??? Like, doubting that it even happened (I was at my mates house and asleep drunk,and woke up during the act-i feel like i did concent-even tho i didnt!!!its so weird) maybe it was my fault?? i feel guilty guilty guilty...i feel bad that other people feel bad for meee...im usually the strong one...
i keep thinking about it too...like flashbacks that make me cringe...and go quiet...
i dont know how to feel, or act...should i act ok or will people doubt me then??? its totally fucked up...
im anoid that this has happened...like an illness, its getting in the way...
i dont know...i feel a bit alone...i feel...i dunno how i feel.
sum1 please tell me im not going bonkers...lol
thanks for reading guys xxx
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It's your brain trying to push the incident aside. I guess you could even call it "denial". It doesn't feel real to you yet. It just happened on Friday night?
You don't need to know how to feel or act............ but eventually you will feel........ and you will act as soon as you consciously accept what has happened to you.
Were you drinking? I know you said you were asleep. But had you been drinking? If so, that could contribute to alot of your haze and confusion.
Bits and pieces will continue to rear it's ugly head........... and it will be your choice to either have it take control of your life, or act on it.
Good luck!!
Try and get on the waiting list now for help/counselling so that it's there when you do need it (that time will come, probably sooner than you think.)
And in reply to the title question, yes there are some people who *might* think you're lying - stories of false accusations do get into the press occasionally, but I think (hope) that only happens because the false allegations are still quite rare. Just because you'd had a few drinks does NOT mean you were a fair target!
xoxo