My name is Amanda and it will b 3 years May 21st 2007 since i was raped. I was 15 yrs old and i was with a couple friends drinkin and having "fun" . then this guy i barely knew came up and we started talking..everything is a bit fuzzy between then and when i realized what was happening. somehow i ended up in my room screaming for him to stop. My embarrassment kept me from tellin my mother for 2 days . i dont no if i would have ever told her if i didnt tell my friend and he practically forced me. I did go to the cops to fill out a report but i overheard them talking and they didn't believe me so i knew nothing would happen. Nothing did. I thought i would have gotten over this ...well atleast learn to deal with it by now and most of the time i do but then i'll have another nightmare and feel it all over again. Since then i've never been in a relationship with anyone and have become pretty much a hermit. it hurts to admit it but its caused me to have bad problems with people. along with other things that may be a bit much. thanks for listening
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