If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
April 10 1994...My Birthday. My Dad's birthday. 30 years apart. was living in a house in Walnut IA. moved sometime that year. lived in a house in Atlantic IA. we are the only people in my moms family who lived in IA (we now live in WI more on that later) age 5: my cousin started playing a "game" with me...we didn't have sex but we did everything else. glad he lives in Minn. we only saw eachother every few months but he did it the entire time i was there. age 6: moved to WI. still playing the "game" game stopped when i was raped age 9: two guys my age one was my bf the other was my friend. they convinced me to come over to my house and come inside and when i wanted them to leave they said that there were people waiting outside to kill them so they couldn't leave and they had to go to my room (i was gullible) and when we got down there i saw that T.C. *my bf* had a knife and J.C. *friend* had a pool stick. they grabbed me and held the knife to my throat. they put me on my bed and made me strip. they kept saying this was fun and they did this all the time and that God would still love me if i did it *knew it was a lie and said NO NO NO* they kept saying i should do it but i still said NO T.C. went first while J.C. held me down it hurt so bad and then T.C. held me down while J.C. raped me (what a boyfriend *right*) then they left and i was left crying...they said if i told ne one they would kill me and that i HAD to keep dating T.C. or they would kill me.-started cutting- i was SO scared. i didn't tell anybody for four years (last Jan) the rape occured on Feb. 19 2004....found DS last year...it still hurts to think about it. two years ago. lost my cousin Jessica in a car accident. lost my great grandma on my moms side. last summer lost my Great Grandma Soward lost Jayme in a car accident. still miss them all and always will...this summer. went to Canada. thought my days of cutting, flashbacks, nightmares, and misery were over. i was wrong. im just starting to heal.
he would touch me then lick me then kiss me and give me hickies on my boobs...he stuck it up my butt once (we were in his room with the door closed and locked i had his hand on my mouth) he made me suck him he made me touch him he made me do spread my vagina so he could lick him...he made me lick his butt he licked my butt and privates he kissed me. he hurt me badly REALLY BADLY so did T.C. and J.C. they REALLY hurt me too