Ok so i am 16 years old and i am finally ready to tell my story after 6 months... it was in the beginning of last summer, when i was 15 years old, i used to hang around in brockton with alor of older men, none of them ever tried to do anything sexual to me, so i bsically trusted all of them. one night i went with my friend to her boyfriends house to sleep over. he has 2 roommates who i knew very well so i felt comfortable there. i was kind of drunk but i was conscious. when i got into the house all i wanted to do was sleep so i went into tonys room to sleep cuz no one was in there. all of the sudden he shuts the door and wont let me out. i get up and start pulling on the door but he wont let me go, now hes standing in front of the door blocking me from the handle. soon i start to scream and bang on the door so someone will come open it, everyone ignored me.... next thing i kno i am forced onto the bed, he takes off my shorts and put his dick in me, without taking off my underwear. while raping me he is holding me down by my arms... i was sort of drunk so i was kind of weak, i treid my hardest to get him offf and after a while i got him off by kicking him. after he raped me he left me all alone just lying on the bed, motionless. soon after i fell asleep.... he didnt return to the hosue til later that day and he never said one word to me after. for months after this happened i never told anyone becasue i was ashamed and embarresed, but i cant keep it inside me any longer.... i feel horrible about myself all the time, also i have a very hard time sleeing with my boyfriend and i ahve noticed that since the rape any extra nice attention from a guy freaks me out and pushes me away... i think that this is becasue theman who raped me was very very nice and acted innocent before raping me.... i need someone to talk to that can relate, help me!
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