everyone here knows i was raped but they dont know the story. okay during the day it was my at the time fiance\'s family reunion it was all going great and they had drinks there beer and mikes hard lemonade and wat not. so me and steve had one during the reunion when everyone was there. then when everyone left it was late evening we decided to have some more drinks and watch movies and wat not. so i have a bad stomach so i dont drink alot i had 2 bottles of mikes hard lemonade. but i was really getting out of it fast very fast, like there was more to the drink than that. so i just wanted to go to bed. we went up to his room and i was getting more out of it and layed on the bed. ( i start to forget fine details now) i remember him being mean and yelling and fighting with me (as a couple we fought alot and he was abusive) and all i wanted to do was sleep. so im on the bed and hes on the bed. now i remember him foundling me and kissing me in places i didnt want to be touched or kissed, i telling him no stop it, and he says no you\'ll like just wait and see. now i having some blank memory loss and then i remeber him being on top of me raping me. im crying yet seem so out of it and so weak like i can barely move let alone push him off of me. i told him stop agian. but then i remember waking up and it was morning. at first i ignored and just blew it off. but then i started to have flash backs and all. then i broke it off with him, everyone just thinks i finally had the guts to breakup with him from him being abusive, but noone knows about wat happened. to this day i believe there was something more in that drink. im so lost and dont know wat to do. if i tell will people believe me? or will they blow me off? im scared and need help. he stalks me i swear hes always at my job and hell stand out side a stare at me. im scared of him. hes always been possesive. HELP
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